feeling kind of good, feeling kind of blah. It's what I've got.

I don’t spend a lot of time sitting in front of my soba this winter. Last winter I took more time to be by myself. I now live by myself, but with internet I am rarely alone.

The first week of March is vacation and I just counted on my calendar about 13 weeks of actual classes until the school year ends. What will I be accomplishing during these weeks and how will that compare to what I have already done or helped to shape? Many times I’ve had what are like flashbacks of my attitudes and passions my first year in Moldova. I’m typically conscientious about what I am doing. I began this job with real expectations for myself including what I could try to help others accomplish. It’s hard for me to presently evaluate my effectiveness—work-wise—and I’ve been thinking a lot about how I might try to make sense of my work in Moldova after I have returned to America. In the future, making or finding this sense might become less important to me, but I would like to be able to feel a purpose or meaning that is outside of the ways in which I have changed. I want to feel that my efforts translate into more than my expanded worldview and pages of self-reflections. I hope that the time I have spent with certain people in my village has been personal to them in the ways that their time and care have been positive and personal to me.